Sitting in my living room, watching Eagles (of all things) with the husband.
Finally some down time.
Time Management. Something I am trying to learn. But I dont know if it is "management" that is the problem or just NO time at all. I feel like I live in my car these days. The odds of me dying in a car accident are increased by the amount of time in a day I spend in it....then from my diabetes ever at this rate.
Lots of things going on in the Trotter-Marshall household. I feel overwhelmed to the point of confusion sometimes....do you ever feel like that?
I know if the twins get their licenses and a car...some things will be lifted from my plate...but I will just worry more. LOL
Im trying to kickstart my Real Estate career. Trying some new ideas, with the help of my broker. But starting to feel overwhelmed with ideas, where do I start, which is the best way to go??? I love it, it is a great way to earn a living, but it also costs my family alot for me to continue, especially if I dont have a sale....its been since June. I know alot of agents are in the same boat with me....even veterans of the business....that makes me feel like it isnt just me....but also discouraging at the same time. There are alot of costs in continuing my business in real estate....and it needs to start paying off again.
So in the meantime, I have considered and decided to also become a Slumber Parties sales consultant. Host some parties, make money, new friends and have fun doing it. The costs are less than real estate and no waiting months to get paid! Hoping my friends can get me started by hosting lots of parties! Im excited to try something new, maybe get me out of this funk I find myself in.
Speaking of funk.......I am not in the Christmas mood this year. I have barely done any shopping at all. I dont know if it is a financial thing (which we are always broke this time of year) or if its the fact that I dont want to live in this house anymore, or just simply.....not feeling it. I have NO idea what it is, but I really hope it kicks in soon. Kylee wakes up everyday, telling me how many days left till Christmas. I want to get in the spirit for her sake, if nothing else. Maybe the cookies we are baking this week, will cheer me up......and friends on Sunday :) It also goes back to the time thing, I dont have time for anything this year...let alone Christmas! Oh, well.
I feel like Im just rambling...I tend to do that, hope you arent lost in my thoughts by now. Haha. I confuse myself, so it wouldnt be a surprise if you are too. :)
Im having a hard time juggling being a mom, wife, real estate agent, friend.....you name it. Im trying my best, but still feel like I fail at least one of those roles daily. I hate when I see Kylee struggling in school, I tend to give in to her way too much, simply cause Im too tired to argue with her. That has to stop. I am having a hard time letting the twins "go". Amanda is fighting me on this at every turn. Being 18, doesnt automatically make them an adult in my opinion. They are just old enough to know better. I understand I will have to let some "control" go, but I need to know I can trust them. Something Amanda is testing me on. It is hard. I feel like I failed her too. We had a huge fight last week, it has been on my mind....still trying to figure out how to get through it. It hurts. Alot.
So I guess you can say, time has me all tied up. Physically and mentally. And I need to beat its ass and trudge through it....get it all untangled and figure it out. I will. Just gonna take time. Haha.
